a letter for someone

hey, you right there, who has been tear my heart off, this word is specially for you
you know, we've been know each other quiet a long time isn't it? yeah at least its been a year, maybe more i think. Did you still remember the first drawing ive been made for you? An ice cream isnt it? maybe you forget about it, cause it was quite a long time from now on. An, i still owe you a cup of ice cream till now on, can you bring back your memories? How happy we have now on, cant be as much happy as before, maybe this all cause we have ground up, and make love not a game anymore. I feel blown far away, from your life exactly. I feel my heart keep shouting 'you miss your chance, man!' and its all make every breath that i take, feel like the more it will hurt me. cause im always wrong, wrong to choose the path next to me. And its the start of my lonely life start. Try to forget you, still i cant. Try to leave you, my feet wont move, try not to see you,still my eyes cant closed when its you in front, what should i do now? i need your help, cause you are the one that make my heart feel like prisoner on your love, cant get out from it, unless i dont mind to feel all the emptiness and the pain. Just this blog the thing that i can share my stories to, the stories that ive feel when we used to be together, and this blog was made with my hope that you'll see it sometimes. But when i try to beg you, you say you wont, and finally i realize now, im just nothing special in front of you. So why i still right here writing on this silly blog's entry? Cause i believe, you'll visit it someday, maybe when we cant see each other anymore, maybe when i leave this world someday, or maybe when you've been forgetting about me later on...

miss

i miss the time when you used to say good night before i sleep
i miss the time that you say hello when we meet
i miss the time when i can see a big smile on youre face
i miss the time when you ask me please dont cry
i miss the time when you ask me to take my lunch
i miss the time when we laugh together
i miss the time when you here sleep on my shoulder
i miss the time when you say i love you
i miss the time when we used to be together
i cry too many times cause i miss you so badly now...

just like the feeling before

why you can smile with the other then give your back to me?
why you can laugh with the other then seems sad when close to me?
am i hurt you or something?
am i wrong for loving you?

why you can run with big smile on your face with the other? Then just walk with a tired face when we decide to run together?
why you can tell them thousand stories you've make, while its hard to tell me just a title of them?

maybe i have do some mistake to you
so that you dont want forgive me
maybe i was suck for leaving you in the past
so that you'll make me pay for that right now

still i can't understand
what make you treat me different from the other
or maybe i just make my self a wrong way on the road called love

just forgive and forget

do you still know when the last time we talk each other?
just forget it and dont call my name!
do you still know when the last time we see each other?
just forget it and pretending we dont know each other!
do you still know when the last time we laugh together?
just forget it and dont cry, cause i'm the one who supposed to!

thank you for being with me until now
thank you for your big smile when im down
thank you for your care when im ill
thank you for the wound you trace on my heart
with a knife called love!

forgive me everything i did it wrong
forgive me for wasting your time be with me
forgive me for every tears that drop from your eyes
forgive me for writing this
cause i just want you to know
you still on my heart forever, whatever youll be