a letter for someone

hey, you right there, who has been tear my heart off, this word is specially for you
you know, we've been know each other quiet a long time isn't it? yeah at least its been a year, maybe more i think. Did you still remember the first drawing ive been made for you? An ice cream isnt it? maybe you forget about it, cause it was quite a long time from now on. An, i still owe you a cup of ice cream till now on, can you bring back your memories? How happy we have now on, cant be as much happy as before, maybe this all cause we have ground up, and make love not a game anymore. I feel blown far away, from your life exactly. I feel my heart keep shouting 'you miss your chance, man!' and its all make every breath that i take, feel like the more it will hurt me. cause im always wrong, wrong to choose the path next to me. And its the start of my lonely life start. Try to forget you, still i cant. Try to leave you, my feet wont move, try not to see you,still my eyes cant closed when its you in front, what should i do now? i need your help, cause you are the one that make my heart feel like prisoner on your love, cant get out from it, unless i dont mind to feel all the emptiness and the pain. Just this blog the thing that i can share my stories to, the stories that ive feel when we used to be together, and this blog was made with my hope that you'll see it sometimes. But when i try to beg you, you say you wont, and finally i realize now, im just nothing special in front of you. So why i still right here writing on this silly blog's entry? Cause i believe, you'll visit it someday, maybe when we cant see each other anymore, maybe when i leave this world someday, or maybe when you've been forgetting about me later on...

miss

i miss the time when you used to say good night before i sleep
i miss the time that you say hello when we meet
i miss the time when i can see a big smile on youre face
i miss the time when you ask me please dont cry
i miss the time when you ask me to take my lunch
i miss the time when we laugh together
i miss the time when you here sleep on my shoulder
i miss the time when you say i love you
i miss the time when we used to be together
i cry too many times cause i miss you so badly now...

just like the feeling before

why you can smile with the other then give your back to me?
why you can laugh with the other then seems sad when close to me?
am i hurt you or something?
am i wrong for loving you?

why you can run with big smile on your face with the other? Then just walk with a tired face when we decide to run together?
why you can tell them thousand stories you've make, while its hard to tell me just a title of them?

maybe i have do some mistake to you
so that you dont want forgive me
maybe i was suck for leaving you in the past
so that you'll make me pay for that right now

still i can't understand
what make you treat me different from the other
or maybe i just make my self a wrong way on the road called love

just forgive and forget

do you still know when the last time we talk each other?
just forget it and dont call my name!
do you still know when the last time we see each other?
just forget it and pretending we dont know each other!
do you still know when the last time we laugh together?
just forget it and dont cry, cause i'm the one who supposed to!

thank you for being with me until now
thank you for your big smile when im down
thank you for your care when im ill
thank you for the wound you trace on my heart
with a knife called love!

forgive me everything i did it wrong
forgive me for wasting your time be with me
forgive me for every tears that drop from your eyes
forgive me for writing this
cause i just want you to know
you still on my heart forever, whatever youll be

one minute one second

I can’t let go
I see you no matter where I look
(My crumbling heart)
I can’t hide
Baby for one minute, one second
I can’t let go
I hear your voice no matter where I go
(My broken heart)
I can’t breathe
Baby for one minute, one second
Even for one moment, one minute, one second

You said you were having a bad hair day
You said your eyes were puffy, and fell back asleep
Sulking, I silently took off my jacket,
Picked up the phone and ordered take out
Closed the curtain, and without knowing how many hours passed
Watching DVD’s
(Just you and me)
The sound of your breath as you leaned against my shoulder
I thought that it was a good thing we didn’t go out

Ridiculously these thoughts still torment me
I unexpectedly remember the jokes that you made and I fall apart
Moments that are really no big deal upset me
I suddenly remember the faces that you used to make and I break apart

I can’t let go
I see you no matter where I look
(My crumbling heart)
I can’t hide
Baby for one minute, one second
(Even if time stops, my heart stops)
I can’t let go
I hear your voice no matter where I go
(My broken heart)
I can’t breathe
Baby for one minute, one second
Even for one moment, one minute, one second

No matter where you went, at the bar right at the corner
When you sat in your little corner
You laid your hands on top of each other on your left leg
When you were tired and yawned, you kept the tears you wiped away
And you would smile like an idiot, showing the dimples in your two cheeks
Whenever you drank water
The pinky that you raised
The glossy black hair that could blind
I thought your clumsy chopstick skills were charming
Your full lips, I hoped it would be forever

This is lov to the e
This autobiographical memory twists my heart
Flips me upside down, with never ending tears
See love could shake a hurricane
The raindrops that blow against my feelings, one drop
The little memories
Like how this glass of alcohol becomes empty, our small memories became transparent
Even though I try to bring it back
The memories of us I can never make it again
Like yesterday night’s dream it’s so clear, but it’s gone
(damn)

I can’t let go
I see you no matter where I look
(My crumbling heart)
I can’t hide
Baby for one minute, one second
(Even if time stops, my heart stops)
I can’t let go
I hear your voice no matter where I go
(My broken heart)
I can’t breathe
Baby for one minute, one second
Even for one moment, one minute, one second

Even for one moment, (for one minute, one second)
Even for one moment, (for one minute, one second)
Even for one moment, (for one minute, one second)
I can’t let go

I can’t let go
(The whisper that takes my breath away)
For one moment
(Our sweet secrets)
For us who is as sad as our love was beautiful
(Can my tears still remember you?)

I can’t let go
(Our quirks and habits)
For one moment
(The beautiful moments)
Still for one moment
For one minute, one second

We can’t go back
(For one minute, one second)

one minute one second

epik high ft taru

me, a fool

today is another bad day, i lied a lie to myself.

the story begin when i was invited to join my friend for have a dinner, she is my special.
but, i decide not to go cause i think its useless, you know, she bring their friends too, and i thought that ill be done nothing hang out with them, yeah, i decide to not join them.

but at last i was regreting to what ive been decide. I realize that our time to be together was not that much, and i hate myself about what ive did. yeah, im just a fool thought.

who is she?

L.I.P

me

im a careless person who dont even care if there something happening around, but once i do care, ill never stop thinking about it,just like you..
people love sports eventhought they know the will get injured sometimes, people like shoping eventhought they will waste all they money they have, so do i loving you eventhought i know ill be hurted and ill waste all my time thinking about you...

Me and you

me..
Like stupid waiting your message here
Just like paranoid or something
Like addicted by heroine

me..
Like stupid hoping for love from you
just like beggar hoping for food
Like cant die without it

you..
Maybe the one that only remind on my mind when i lost my memories
Cause too many sweet memories that filling my mind, and its all about you..

You..
Maybe not realize me on your life
Cause im nothing
Im just a dust that pass by the blow of the wind~

love love love

It's Midnight, your tired drunk voice
2:00 a.m., the abruptly ended phone call

Nobody knows how I feel
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Have you ever been in love before?
Falling at first sight, like in the movies?
Spent the entire night talking on the phone?
Bragged to the entire world?
Waited in the pouring rain?
Run like crazy to the one you love?
Secretly guarded?
Gone crazy?
Pretended not to see when you really did?

Im sure you have been in love
Spent all your money on your anniversary
Apologized even when you didnt do anything wrong
Spent entire days writing love letters
Pushed back promises with your family
Prayed to God for that persons health
Ignored your friends
Missed them
Guarded their leaving figure

Can't stop love
Why? I loved you like crazy
Why? I treated you so well
I gave you everything
You got me going crazy

Why? I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you
How could you?

Nobody knows how I feel
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Had your makeup wash off in the pouring rain?
Cut your long hair?
Started smoking again?
Avoided areas where they might be?
Wrote letters you know you would never send?
Called them while you were drunk?
(Hello?)
Had your lips freeze up

Im sure you've had a broken heart
Hated them as much as you loved them
Ripped up letters you didnt read
Deleted the phone number you will never forget
Celebrated anniversaries by yourself
Burned all the photographs
Thought every song about heartbreak in the world was yours

Can't stop love
Why? I loved you like crazy
Why? I treated you so well
I gave you everything
You got me going crazy

Why? I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you
How could you?

Nobody knows my heart
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Cry like an idiot
Get drunk again
Hold on to your friend
And curse that person

Time passes
Get drunk again
Grab the phone
Say love!

Nobody knows my heart
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Nobody knows my heart
In reality, only you don't know
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
As I live my life, Im sure I'll see you again

another song that reflecting my love story
love love love~
epik high ft younha

the model was far more beautifull than this picture :D

L.I.P

LOVE IS PAIN, NO DOUBT
you know, loving someone was a curse, cause when you loving somenone youll hard to released yourself from that relation. Its hard when you say love, but it harder when you say goodbye, cause saying love was a start and say goodbye was to forget the sweet memories. Just to let you know, im crying when i write this posting, cause im in love, and as i said, love is pan, no doubt.
for somenone :) p.s im still waiting you till this time.. maybe forever...

paranoid?

did you ever feel that your phone ringing right when you think it would?
i do, and it always you when it ring,it happens not only once! believe me!

haru haru~

Leave
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me
Ah ah ah ah~

My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind
My heart vanished like smoke
It can't be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind
(say goodbye)

Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don't answer anything as I cry out "I miss you"
I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless

What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times
[Chorus]
Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
Oh girl I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye...

If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly

Always be happy with him, (so) I won't ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won't be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous
You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened

[Chorus]

I hope your heart fees relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by
It would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all (mm)
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
I pray for you

[Chorus]

Oh girl I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don't lie, lie
You're my heart, say goodbye

Big Bang~Haru haru (day after day)


this song describe my own love story
can't even sleep without hearing it, check the MV :D